Monday, September 17, 2012

BFF and TTWD

I just talked to my oldest and best friend who lives in Germany. We have been friends since we were three. We were neighbors for years, lost touch, my sister ran into her and told her where I am, gave her my address, and we wrote letters. Then emails. Phone. Now she comes and visits me at least once a year and is the godmother of my children.
Over our busy summer, I didn't have time to talk to her. We like to talk to each other for hours, and I just didn't have the time, plus the time difference, to talk to her this summer. So we finally spoke today, and I was a little sad, I have to admit.
"What's new with you? How are you? How is your life?" Well, I want to tell her about DH and I. About how our relationship is just so amazing. How we continuously work on our relationship and keep bringing it to the next level. I want to tell her how amazing our sex is, after all, girlfriends talk about this, right? But I can't. I am not even sure I would want to tell her that I am spanked by my husband. How it makes me feel. I don't think she would understand. 

So I am feeling a little alone today. Which is wrong. We had the best weekend ever last weekend. We had a very focused on us weekend, lots of spanking, talking, intimate talking, fantasies, sex, and even family time. The outfit came out. I grew the courage to put it on without him asking for it, and surprised him. Blow jobs (oh yeah, plural). Piggy tails. He loves those. And the pearl on top of that weekend was me riding DH last night and cuming like that for the first time ever. Just amazing. But I can't tell anyone. I can blog about it, and I love the community here, I really do, but sometimes it is just not the same. 



So cheer me up! Leave me a comment with the best thing that happened to you this weekend!

16 comments:

  1. Aww Julia, I know what you mean. It's just such a tough thing to bring 'out' isn't it? At least we have here, at least we have this corner :)
    So, my best thing? Oh well I think it would be going for an afternoon nap on Saturday, with no sleep? :) hehe and I'd have to say that chatting whilst not quite sober with a blogger friend the night before would be a very close second. :)

    Dee x

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    1. Well a nap with no sleep sounds awesome! And I love when chatting just works out sometimes. Not quite sober? Even better. :D

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  2. (((Julia)))) I know the feeling. I felt funny especially when I first started ttwd, I'd go out and have fun like a careless girl and then go back and have to answer to Cael. Which, is what I wanted, but at the same time, I felt like I had this huge secret and wanted so badly to share with my friends. I actually did end up sharing with one vanilla friend, I just had to do it. If you're really thinking of sharing with your friend, feel free to shoot me an email, I'll tell you how my friend reacted -- there are definite pros and cons to sharing.

    I hope you feel better. You have an awesome thing going on with your DH!

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    1. Thank you Riley! You are so sweet, although I am not sure I want to even tell her about it, just would be nice to have somebody. But that is why I am here, isn't it? I really enjoy you guys, reading your stories, your fears, ups and downs. Great place!

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  3. Cheer Up soon Julia. I shared about spanking with one true friend and it did not turn out as well as I hoped. So, it is a 50-50 chance on sharing with real friends that it will turn out well or not. But, that does not make it easy. But, I am supposed to be leaving a comment to cheer you up so forgive me for my commentary part here.

    I got some spanking and sexual reconnect time on Friday and my husband and I enjoyed a good old fashioned burger and fries on Saturday afternoon with him. Which seems small, but I loved unhurried Saturday afternoon time. And, I saw my family (my parents on Sunday). Hugs to you!!

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    1. Hey SNP. Thanks for sharing with me. It is not so much that I want to share ttwd with her, but every once in a while, I would really like to talk to somebody in person about it. This friend is not in a relationship, and never really has either, so I try to avoid talking relationship stuff with her. Don't want to rub it in her face that I am this happy with my husband, and our lives, and she doesn't have anyone. Maybe I am just being too careful with her? I don't know.

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  4. Maybe you could just share some of the fun, sexy, relationship stuff without getting into the nitty-gritty of the whole spanking dynamic? I've shared bits and pieces with my bff, not really about ttwd specifically, but enough that she knows we aren't strictly vanilla. I don't think I'd ever really consider full disclosure, just the "safe" stuff. Sorry you are bumming! You can email me anytime you want to have some girl-talk! I know it's not the same, but still..;)

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    1. Thanks Tess. I am not sure I even want to tell her anything, and she doesn't have a guy, or a family like I do, so I don't like telling her that much anyway. I would feel like I am rubbing it in or something.

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  5. I am visualizing a future in which there's no judgement around TTWD. My best part of this weekend was a hot dinner date with my husband. My friend offered to take the kids to a birthday party for me and I put on my mini skirt and cowgirl boots and rocked my husbanad's world. :)

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    1. Wow! That sounds to awesome! Very happy to hear it. You just put a big smile on my face!

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  6. oh my goodness. you know what? it's the same for me. i have a gay best friend (guy) who knows my sh*t but it's not the same.

    my GIRL best friend can't know about ttwd, and she can't even know about BIKSS cos she's married to a guy who's had indiscretions before and every single time she has blamed the other woman for "stealing" her husband.

    and if she knew i was with a married man she'll never forgive me for it.

    my point is that people are responsible for their own sins. so her husband isn't innocent in all that. but well.

    AND she read 50 shades and is waxing lyrical about how wonderful it is that Grey was "rescued" by love.

    sheesh.

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    1. Yeah sounds a bit hypocritical to me, but people are people, they have their own things going on. I understand about you not wanting to share that he is a married guy, I can see how that would not go so well. Thank you for telling me this.

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  7. I can't tell you about a happy weekend but I sure do understand this post. I'd love to be able to explain this to my oldest friends, but I can't either. It makes me a little sad too.

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    1. Yeah exactly. She is my oldest friend, and still, I don't think she would be ready...

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  8. Ah Julia! I understand-we probably all do! We are so fortunate to have this right here-even ten years ago the community wasn't so available. Cheer up. Some day you might decide time is precious and to let her see you've grown and changed. 50/50 as someone pointed out. And since time is precious-I say either way you win. If she's not ok with it you have to let her be a valued piece of your past-but not a piece of your present.

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  9. I am curious about one thing; do spanking husbands give their wives head? I mean, I just wonder because in my experience (and I don't to sound like an expert - I haven't sampled a large number!)men who perform oral sex on their women are nicer guys all around,

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