Monday, December 3, 2012

Worshipping.

Very graphic post advisory

Kitty for Mr. Woods wrote this post. Her blog being on my blogroll, DH saw it and clicked on it. He loves when I suck his cock, but I don't think he knows (or believe) quite how much I like it. This must be yet another left-over from his lovely ex-wife.
When we met more than ten years ago, I had never given a blow job. I have had two boyfriends, had sex with them (not good sex. At all. But at 16, I mean....), but was always intimidated by The Penis. Boyfriends never insisted, and therefore, I never did it. Then at 17, no boyfriend, a person in my life touched me inappropriately, very, and I was too shocked to do anything. I withdrew from everybody and just waited for my time to get out of Germany.
This person also had porn lying around, and kept trying to tell me that a blow job for a guy is the greatest. Needless to say, this really grossed me out.

DH enters the picture. Such a funny, gentle, damaged guy. He introduced me to giving blow jobs the way he likes them. Ten years later however, I know he never actually lets me do what he would like to have done. Does that makes sense?
Back to Kitty's post. He read it. He told me about it. I nod cause I had already read it.
"Do you feel that way about my cock?"
Blushing. "Well yeah, but I am not that good at describing it. Plus, I think she wrote that for the CWS challenge, and I am not part of that."
"Why not?"
Good question. In my mind I am thinking, mostly because I don't know if I am good enough for that yet, and honestly I hardly ever feel like a sub. I go with being honest.
"What do you mean you don't feel like a sub?"
DH had been working on being more vocal, letting it out, not thinking, enjoying, but most of the time, he just gets quiet, and then pulls away so he can fuck me. Lucky me, but I love to just give him pleasure too. Sometimes, its supposed to be just for him.
I told him most of this, then pointed him to Spanky's blog, and left the room to entertain the children so he would have some alone time to look, read, explore.

A few hours later, the stars aligned just right for us, the kids went to bed, and fell asleep, and my step son left to cook dinner for his new girl friend. Took a shower, put on some white panties, waited by the bed.

"You haven't really been a good girl lately, but I wouldn't say you were a bad girl either. Lean over the bed." And he started spanking me. He only used his hand, holding on to me with his other hand.
"You know I don't like it when you spank me" he said. Oops, I needed some attention and smacked his ass. I apologized and admitted I was trying to get his attention. Apparently that isn't a spanking offense anymore though, because he stopped, grabbed the new butt plug, and started to get me ready. He grabbed the lube, moved me around on the bed a little, and started to insert his finger, shortly after, he inserted the new plug.
"Get on all fours on the bed", which I did, "Mh, what a view. Stay like that, I will be back." And he left. I was alone, feeling the plug fill me deliciously. I felt myself getting more wet. I kept rolling my hips, getting more sensitive to everything by the second.

"Good girl, now come over my lap."
 He took me over his lap, and spanked me really hard, just with his hand, over and over, in the same spot.

"Okay, get off, and roll on your back. I want to try this new position I saw on that blog." The diaper position. I did, and he started spanking me again. Very intimate position. Being exposed. I like this position, although don't care for the name at all. DH kept getting distracted by the view though, panties long taken off, never to be seen again (I can't find them).

"Suck my cock" he said as he moved closer to my face. I did. Happily. I love how soft the skin on his cock is. Such soft skin over such a massive and hard cock. The head slipped into my mouth, I enveloped him, taking as much as I could. I pulled back, and he grabbed me by the hair and held me in place. As if I was done, which I was not. He held onto my hair, guiding me to take more, instructing me to take a big breath, let it out. "Such a good cock sucker", I moan, enjoying giving him pleasure. I let go of his cock, and start to lick his balls, taking them in my mouth, licking my way back to his cock, and letting him enter my mouth all the way. "You are a good girl. You love sucking my cock, don't you", unintelligible sound coming from me, I am greedily trying to get more into my mouth and throat without gagging. I gag, take a big breath and do it again. He pulls away, sliding his head and out of my mouth. "Leave it open, let me fuck your face", and I do.
And then he pulls away. I think he pulls away because he wants to make sure I get to come too. He pulls away because he doesn't think I would like him to cum on my face or in my mouth, and I think he pulls away because he realizes that I can't possible be doing what all those girls in porn always do. I am his wife after all. But I want to be his everything. I want him to be able to let go, take me however he wants to. I am his for the taking.

He did fuck me silly after that. And it was perfect, I am not complaining. But sometimes I would love to just give him pleasure, show him how much I love to suck his cock. Maybe after reading this, he will understand a bit better. I am not his exwife.
His cock is so beautiful, of course I want it in my mouth, in my pussy, slapping my breast, or entering my ass. I am all his.

33 comments:

  1. Counting down til Germany. Sounds like you both had fun.

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    1. Exactly! And we were. Excited about tonight too. Pretty fun when you know you are going to get some!

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    2. Julia just suggested we do this challenge every year. I am totally on board!

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  2. Sounds like he and I share some of the same feelings. I could be wrong, I can only speak for myself but this sounds similar. Feeling like you are "disrespecting" her or whatever, even if it's what she wants.

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    1. I think that is exactly it actually. And any words of wisdom? Keep showing him that I really do like it?

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    2. Yeah I think so. Not sure what your and his dynamic is like during, but while it's happening probably letting him know how you like it and want it.

      Also letting him know outside the bedroom after it has gone well how much you enjoyed it etc...

      He'll get used to it and the idea of it all.

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    3. Thank you. I really appreciate it!

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    4. Hi Ponyboy, yep I still feel this way, even this morning (woke up at six and didn't have sex with Julia because she was sleeping and I thought she might not like it. So close, and yet so far.

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  3. Oh, girl, I so feel you. :) I eventually convinced him to let me just worship his cock in the mornings, and for a month or so, we did that, nearly every single morning. Blow job and off to work. Mmmm.

    He understood after that.

    HOT post btw - you totally should join. :)

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    1. Hi Corina, wow! That sounds like a GREAT idea....

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    2. DH woke me up all excited this morning, telling me about my comments, and especially yours, saying: "I could totally do that for a month." Lol. I also think it is a great idea, thank you Conina.

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    3. I love the image of you getting woken up with "I could totally have a BJ every morning for a month!" :)

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  4. I'm with Conina, you need to message Spanky =)

    Definitely a great post. I understand wanting to be used. It took us many moons to get there. Sometimes, we have private times at night, when it's dark and we're so very open, and can talk freely about our deepest desires, our darkest fantasies. It is wonderful.

    Good luck!

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    1. Okay, I did! You guys and DH convinced me!
      Thank you for commenting, very helpful, we did just that yesterday, and I have tried to talk more during play anyway, I think it is making a difference.

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  5. Thanks for linking to my blog! I hope you guys enjoyed the post! You should totally join CWS. I thought writing about it would be difficult, but once I got going the words just kind of flowed. I haven't always had the best experience with blow jobs either, but something is different with Mr. Woods. I just love it...

    I'd say, if you want him to cum on your face, or in your mouth, or wherever, express that out of the bedroom first. Then when you're in the moment, ask him for it. Beg him even. Maybe he feels guilty or just needs some reassurance that it's something you want. And just because he cums first doesn't mean you can't get off too. He has a mouth and fingers after all. ;)

    Very hot post! Thanks for sharing!

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    1. Of course, that was a really hot post you wrote! I had to link it, DH's face upon reading it was just amazing!
      I am communicating my wants and desires more, and it is already paying off big time! He came really close yesterday without the usual pulling away.

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  6. Julia, I added you to the CWS list as requested! Feel free to go back and participate in some of the CWS challenges if you wish.

    This was a great post too. Welcome!

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    1. Thank you Spanky, and thank you for having such a great website! DH has been getting lost in it!

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    2. I was just going to say - you used the word! I know the word was the issue for a long time.

      Welcome Julia - and you should know that I wasn't sure if I wanted to join when Spanky first suggested it either, but in retrospect, it was an important addition to an already great path.

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    3. Thanks guys! Once DH heard about the CWS, there was no turning back. :) And he really really likes the sound of me worshiping his cock. So I got over it!

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    1. But I warned the readers! Thank you.

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    2. I'll just add the WOW as well and say you are part of a fun group there at Spankys' blog. Take care.

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  8. Very hot post! Definitely something I can relate to. ^.^

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  9. I've been revisiting your blog, and found this post again. It's very good! Maybe you should repost it on CWS some time?

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    1. I definitely could, thanks Spanky!

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  10. Wow! Oh wow.

    I am struck.

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  11. Great post! I have my wife go down a lot, and guide her and instruct her in it. Giving head really enhances her submissiveness and she loves it. It doesn't hurt to be forceful either.

    It sounds like you've learned its rewards!

    Tim

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